We celebrated another birthday for Bennett ... he has turned into a handsome young boy. He amazes me with how smart he is, and unfortunately, questioning little boys watching their mothers hack for money, isn't the best parenting plan ever. He is smart though, he knows the only reason I do it, is because I don't see another way right now. Maybe I'm just taking the easy way out... maybe I'm doing what is best for my family, I don't know....
Mr. Hottie and I don't even bother talking anymore. I just don't like him. He refuses to go to work at a respectable job, he's not making anymore by being a criminal, and I just don't want more attention being brought to us then needed. I can't get caught. I have two kids and another one on the way depending on me. He's a good dad, for the most part, but I had to beg him to go spend time with Celeste one day.
And then I went into labor, and OMG it hurts. I don't know why I keep putting myself through this. I swear, I'm gonna make him go sleep in the park. :::screams::: Okay, I'm to nice for that, but this baby is it. Our last one. I don't even want him to look at me anymore. On top of it all, he says I have an eating disorder cuz I'm so skinny. I eat! I swear I eat!
Dante Storm was born that day, such an amazing little boy. He's got my hair I think... he still has peach fuzz all over his head but I think there is some red in it.
This is our house now...... mine and the kids, like I said, for all I care, Mr. Hottie can sleep in the park. Or go sleep with his accomplice because I heard a rumor that he was sleeping with her anyway.
The house from the backyard.
It's not much right now, but it's ours. I am saving up again to build another room, then the boys can have their own room, and Celeste can have her own room. As it is now, Celeste may end up in Bennett's room for a little while. Not that I think they'll care, because they are close. I am thinking about un-pink-ifying my room too. I'd like a pool at some point, new fridge, new counters, and some other stuff at some point. I'd like a lot of things.
There are some days that I catch Sinbad with the kids and my heart stops and I think, he really is a good dad. And I'm all guilty about all the bad mean things I've said about him, or ... (sigh) ... hoping he gets shot by a cop... (looks around) ... I didn't say that...
I was still working on that big book about that guy. It's hard to write a biography about a guy you don't really know to well.
Celeste was amazing though, she played by herself so well while I was trying to work.
I am making ... at times, a lot of money in few moments of work. I have a rule about only taking tiny amounts of cash out of accounts and sometimes, I stumble onto a great big account that I can take a bit more from. I'm making anywhere from $2,000 to almost $5,000 a night now!
I love smooching on and taking care of Dante. I love taking care of all my kids, but there is something special about him. I just can't put my fingers on it.
Bennett is doing wonderful in school, he of course comes home and starts his homework right away.
I've learned how to cook even better!! I tried something new, burned it ... but I'm trying!
I even try to help Bennett with his homework, sometimes, I learn more from him.
Sinbad is just that.... bad.... he's started to completely ignore the kids now and all he does is play video games all day! He's even been skipping out on work! It drives me insane!
Celeste grew up into a sweet little girl! All the kids seem to have my hair color, yay!!
Her and her brother are two peas in a pod!!
Seriously, I guess my cooking isn't that good.... unless.........
So I called Sinbad up and found out that he slipped something in my drink one night and had his way with me! So I'm pregnant, AGAIN!! I asked him if he liked to woohoo with a corpse! I can't believe it!! But that wasn't even the kicker, he finally went to work and low and behold, he was in the SLAMMER!
When they let him out, he went to the pool...... and he was so tired and hungry, he didn't have much strength... maybe he committed suicide, I don't know...
But Death came for him regardless....
And took him away ...
I heard that he pleaded, but Death told him no... he steals, he lies, he does bad things.....
I wonder what Death would say about me.... guess I better not think about it...
I ran into Jenny when I went to go pick up his gravemarker.... didn't like the guy much anymore, but he was my baby daddy, and one upon a time he was my Mr. Hottie and made my heart twitterthump... now he's gone.
I looked like crap... from all the crying...
So I had to tell all the kids their dad was dead, that didn't go over with any of them very well, the baby though, didn't seem to care...
Dante had his first birthday and we all decided we were going to be okay ...
I made some friends, Tim is sitting next to me, and Justin is on the other side. I think I kinda like Justin, he makes my toes curl....
Amy came over too, and we chatted and chatted .... oh yeah, that's Ismael with the cowboy hat. I think he's gay, and boy he got PISSED at me when I asked!
Justin and I were talking about gardens ...
He gave me some good ideas on how to improve mine.
My little Dante is growing up though.... it's hard to believe he was just a little bitty ...
The guys and Amy playing a game. (Justin, Amy, Ismael on the couch, and Tim standing behind them)
I tucked myself away to work on walking with Dante
Justin and I snuck away for a quick moment. I have no idea if he likes me but he held my hands!! I'm a little worried Amy likes him too though. I'm just an old lady, used, with going on 4 kids... seriously, I can't see him wanting me...
The next day I went to check on Dante, who was playing quitely in our room when....
Oooooooh thanks for playing me music Dante, Mommy ... Ooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwieeeeee.... apppp-rrr-eee-ssshhheee-atesssssss it....
Oh oh oh ......
It's a girl!!! Now I have two boys and two girls.. I think it's all rounded out well
I named her Estella Coral ... and I am now the single mom of four....
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